Oh no!

She is very hot young girl.. She want that I lick her pussy.. So wet talk and dirty talk – I love that. I am now insecure about my tongue. You know, training is everything and tongue is a muscle like anything else, so my ex-wife makes my tongue to steel and I recently read a book by cunnnilingus and there is very important topic, tongue-training. You must train your tongue every day because I myself love eat pussy hours, so my tongue need to be steel..

And I found that what is awkward; she wants me so badly and I am little bit scared about that. I am used to be that who try 100 to 1 ratio persuade with women, but very beautiful women wants me and chase me. I don’t know why.. My ex-gf buy me gasoline and give me her old clothes. But she was also mean and decreased my self-worth and make me feel bad, ugly.. but this girl, the rose-pussy; she made something that when she come back online my view of myself just changed; I think that I am just an old fart but that thinking just moved to that I am Princess. I don’t understand..

Bad Girl?

I am not sure about this thing, it is she the bad girl. I was. I drink a lot and I smoke too. And novadays I was read also scientific results that, you are with who are surrounded with you. People makes you. You are she or/and she, it is like an osmosis, which pees reacts with water with where are their “fellows”, and they changes being similar. Maybe if I remember correct it is most likely 50% change to copy a bad habit or a good one. I am sober and I am very confident that I doesn’t drink anymore but I don’t want take a risks also.

What comes from business you need go to people who makes lot of money to coming similar. Your odds improves. If you hanging with drinkers, you will probably come one of them; I know that effects in brain, heavy drinkers are like an advertising machine. And if you see, or hear something many times, it sticks in your head, 5-12 times at least and 20 times it becomes like known.. That is why you should be wise to choose your people around you.

But yeah, I have got influence also with people, I don’t need alcohol or any kind substance to get high. I get high about her, that Bad Girl..

That girl

She write me so erotic material and I get very aroused and now my pussy hurts. I am very angry and disappointment about myself. I have really issue about plastic surgery, which is love-hate-relationship. I love that they make me a pussy, but I hate plastic-surgery cos it lead you thinking for yourself that you are not enough. That girl had got bigger inner lips which are red-flag for plastic-surgery because of porn-industry, but in my eyes her pussy is super beautiful like a flower, like a rose. And that hit in my decision center, what a fuck I did? I think if you enter in plastic-surgery-business, you get addicted that idea that you need be fixed and your not enough. I feel terrible pain and I just see my pussy it need something more and more. I am super insecure. And of-course I am piss-of cos my pussy is in the fire because that girl aroused me so badly and I am very sexual person sometimes and very horny and my sex-drive doesn’t stop, it last “for-ever”. I can be aroused whole day and I never get orgasm. So I need to rest my pussy but how hell I rest my brain not to think that young girl who is super horny about my boobs now and my body and want lick my pussy.. And wanna give me her pussy to lick for me. I do love giving cunnilingus. But she is so horny to make me that the Pillow-Princess. But I need rest and chill and heal my pussy and soon my body too, cos I have been too lazy and passive a long time and I urge to training hard. So if you are not trans-girl and you thinking that your Pussy is not beautiful, it is very beautiful in her unique way. It is the mind-set what you get in porn-industry. So don’t watch porn but take a deep-dive in sexology, tantra and that kind stuff and enjoy more whole of you that beautiful thing called sex.


That girl pop-up at that online dating site yesterday and I saw her Pussy and that was very beautiful. Like a flower. like a rose. And I realize again that what I know and why I am not like porno. It was helped me to understand that there is a lot of beautiness of Pussies and them are all unique masterpieces.

My plastic-surgery talk me around and I went my second Pussy-operation and now my Pussy is sore and I need take easy. My former Pussy was good but there is something what happened. My former gf said that it is like a dick but my former gf(sex-partner) said that was beautiful. I would love to think that every Pussies is the masterpieces of nature. This is my pussy 2.0, and I am now a virgin and unsecure of my Pussy.

If you realize that there is no similar Pussy and every Pussy is different. Everybody who watch porn, their poison their mind to get that “perfect Pussy”, which is insane. Your Pussy is always beautiful and very unique. It is kind the opportunity cost and good reminder me that, it’s a mind-set what you think about you and your Pussy. My plastic-surgery talked me over and I get that surgery to get inner labias, minor labias – and now my Pussy is on fire, it is very sore and I need chill. I am very sporty and I wanna do sport, but my Pussy hurts. And I am very insecure my Pussy too. There is no ugly Pussy. Every Pussy is an unique masterpiece of nature and when you realize that you understand and see how beautiful they really are. So fuck plastic-surgery – you not need that. Your Pussy is always beautiful and there is no similar Pussy. So do not enter in the trap of plastic-surgery and get manipulated that your Pussy need fix. My Pussy is now more near that porn-industry Pussy, but my Pussy is also neo-vagina and not nature Pussy. So there is no fix what you need. You get addicted about an idea that you are not enough if you get in plastic-surgery. My ex-gf was very mean also. She made me feel ugly and bad and horrible, so she was poisonous person. But she make me thinking that I need plastic-surgery. Planted that idea that I need be more “natural” Pussy cos my Pussy not finnish and need get finished. Yeah result is now, that I am insecure, my Pussy is sore, painful and I need wait when my Pussy get better. I hope I heal soon and I get my Ninja training again. I am in a shape and in fit and I just want go training hard again. I get pause now my train and it was super stress my body to go through that surgery. My plastic-surgery made good work and my Pussy is more natural. But it was beautiful then too. So I love Pussies and I love their uniqueness and that former gf was bad person who make me feel bad and changed my view of my-self. My sex-friend obey my Pussy and she made me feel kind a Princess and very sexy woman. I need that kind person who treat me well. But that sex-mate was not my type person but she make me feel that I am super sexy woman and my Pussy is beautiful. She was “true lesbian” and she said that she never fuck with ugly women. But unfortunately I ended-up with that bad girl, ugly inside person. I need re-wiring my brain again and find the real Princess and I think that The Rose-Pussy is her. She wakes up my Pussy lust. And I want eat her Pussy..

What comes from business and making money. This topic is my the spot, it is my passion and my destiny and I am very knowledgeably and very interested and very passionate.. This is an example of perfect niece. What you love and what your passion is your destiny. And follow that path.

That girl turns very crazy about my speech and she is now horny and talked dirty to me. If I speak something else but not licking Pussy, I get bored with people, they not response.

The new Pillow Princess?!

The Dating site where I am is the Woman who showed her Pussy for me and asked what I like. Her Pussy was gorgeous and very unique like rose. I felt love immediately. She is a young girl and I really hope I would meet her in IRL soon.. I would love to eat her flower. And she is very sweet person somehow. She is very exciting my Pussy, and asking it continuously, and I really love that talk.

As you see dear reader. Pussy eating is my destiny. I love doing it and talk it all-to-day. I know science about cunnilingus and how to give female maximum pleasure. I was get response that I know a lot about it and what I know helps people. People think wrong with cunnilingus, that it is foreplay, is not. I love doing hours with right woman, eating her Pussy and see, feel her enjoyment and go to the flow. When your tongue is in the top shape, you can enjoy her Pussy hours and that is like a runner’s high; I was experienced both, and I would love speak Pussy-eaters-high. You just drink her juices and that dream never ends. That is something what I really love.

Eating Pussy is the art. The real art. You need become the one with your partner and feel her inside you. You need know everything about her and her body and her Pussy. My ex-wife said that what I did it was like different universum. Others only smooth down. She lost something, I felt that, she was disappointment that why everyone else is not like me.

What I did, I read a lot of books of sexology and I focus cunnilingus, pleasing woman in sexual way and I absorb everything and I used what I learn from her and I practice with her years. About 3 years a row, plus two years at least a day in every week. So I become quite good I think… I was super curious, I want learn everything about how I maximize her pleasure and learn. My ex-girl friend start dating me when I gave her cunnilingus. She said that it was the reason. And sex with me was awesome and yeah I really love her body and her Pussy. She was perfect like my ex-wife in her unique way. But the sex was only thing was what we have.. I miss that what we have, also I miss what we have with my ex-wife in those three years. And of-course there is a girl who we have a little sex relationship and that was awesome too. And couple of girls too who liked what I did. But you must know the fact, every pussy is an unique masterpiece and they have got own unique way to response your touch, and of-course your tongue. You need start the communication with her, asking what she like, how that feel and etc; your are explorer and in un-discovered land; in sacred place; you need know your territory, and conquer that with your tongue. You need become an artist, a storm, you need make your tongue for your magic-wand and just enter in the heaven and become the one with her Pussy. Everything is all about her Pussy, you need become the worshiper of her Pussy and be part of her Pussy.

I was read a lot of books and you should too, read every book for how to treat woman in sexual way; and focus her Pussy, and cunnilingus. That how I did. And what I said and what every sexologist says, you need become master of communication, you must know every what she loves and memorize and use them with her and do everything better, and becoming the best, a little bit better everyday, improve your skills every day little bit.. But you must be like a violinist and hear how her Pussy react your tongue and you need find the rhythm and voila, she will loves you for ever.

This is simple but maybe not easy. I share here little golden nugget for you, the G-spot what is that. It is woman prostate, para-urethal glands and there is sacred nectar how ancient sexologist calls it, Tantra gurus, and yeah, read those books too from Tantra; you will learn more. The G-spot is the sacred garden or/wall which protects that Goddess nectar, ejaculatory fluids.. I find very easyway to analyze and spot her G-Spot, you can feel “the cat tongue” with your fingers and she will felt love for your fingers too.. She must be super aroused, super relaxed, accepted that she could be pee if she must pee. But when you are licked her and stimulated with her Pussy inside with your fingers, you can feel tip of your finger something “The cat tongue” like, her The Sacred Garden arise, that The Sacred Gate arises and here is the key of her ejaculation. You need your fingers and you need be use force and stimulate her many ways; you can use classic, come hither move, you can “milking” her “the cat tongue” area, you can be like an electric-shock and buzz that “the cat tongue”, and making zig-zag-movement, tapping, vibrate with your fingers. But you need use power and stimulate with power, put you must communicate. The key using the power is that, that the fountain is below that “the cat tongue” and you may need “dig deeper”. My women was want that way. And that the nectar of goddess is very unique stuff and you need understand that you not always hit the right spot and remember always sex, is all about pleasure, and there is no goals to get any orgasm, any ejaculate etc, it is the path of pleasure. Everything what you experience with her is the journey; there will be orgasms, flows of fluids but the main thing is being in the flow of ecstasy. You can experience many orgasm, hit the o-zone, see that how her garden explode..

The eating pussy is the pure art and the key is what I said above and the key is become see yourself like an artist and create every-time something beautiful. Communicate and learn from her and do better everyday and the key is her Pussy is like a violin, you must need become understand everything about that beautiful treasure. I do many tricks my tongue, I write, I spell, I play… Classic way is writing with your tongue, but you must be very creative. I like doing mind-trick, like I imagine that clitoris is a boat and I become a storm and I make storm in her Pussy. You know sucking her clit and making waves of your tongue. But yeah, you can do everykind trick for her pussy, eating very slow. Stopping, teasing her. But you need become artist and kind a violinist and if you find something what she really love stay it and do it again, and again. But your must asking her what she love or not. And what new she want, and love her what you do already or don’t. But when you really know her Pussy, she will give you always.

I also recommended to study erogenous-zones and erotic-massage, foot-massage. Making her mood good, relaxed. You can study also “love-foods”. Making environment also sexy.. And there is a lot but the more you learn the more you earn and the knowledge is the key.

I think this someway go inside me to the “customer”. “Eating Pussy”-package, the product is something what women who are lesbian, bi-, pansexual they really buy it.

It is funny if I told my self dull things I doesn’t get anyone’s attention. But when I tell with passion, enthusiasm that I love eat their Pussies they will react.

I was read The Poor Charlies Almanac and there was “The Spots”, the competence, where you know a lot and I know lot of pleasure of women, especially cunnilingus. And of course there is the nature. But sex is my thing. People need to stay in their spots. Example if you are the priest and you go to teach very difference religion, you jump-out in your spot. You know, what is your super interesting area, is your spot. Stay in your spot. Make your products there where are you super good and know a lot.

I am scared

My second vaginoplasty approach and I am scared. I watching my hair and I am not sure, but I have maybe hair-loss and nothing I can do. And I am with women when I go trough that surgery again. I am androgynous and trans-woman, post-op but people sometimes miss-gender me and it influences me very badly. I get good response lesbian party at last summer and I have got lesbian girl friend at autumn. But I thinking my hair-loss. Bold is what suits me little-bit better than long hairs, but long-hair are much more femine and I would love get them back, but I hate miss-gendering and pigotry . I think I need to start thinking that I am enough also. And my money situation is that I am poor. I just though that I would love to go somewhere to ride my car but you need money, it takes 40-70 bucks and I yeah, I am poor as a shit. And I am tired to read or listening knowledge just today. And I am tired that I trained yesterday hard. I found that girl from north is very attractive by her words. I am very knowing about neuroscience that, you can spot your type person with their text style, and that text resonate something to me. But yeah here something for you:

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